a la mode' me

2006-09-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

i like this.wish i can perform in such musical too ~ its's dreamboy 06 in nippon ;)

2006-09-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

story of..hmm im not very sure too hah~

2006-09-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

2006-09-22T17:47:00.000+08:00

2006-09-21T01:14:00.000+08:00

i like jpop too~heh ;)

2006-09-19T16:18:00.000+08:00

' just thinking of my parents, i cried to sleep
i wish i could hug them real hard, someday
that laughter in our face
i'm not cold hearted, i just don't express
if you are willing to explore,
maybe you will find the other side
:( turn it around and you will see (:
it is all up to you
you gave me faith.
i want to thanks
but don't ruin it
i still need it
for every little things i do.

2006-09-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

things happen around have not been smooth sailing lately. i have alot in my mind but i duno which to start with. i'm feeling adrift all of a sudden , so lost that i don't know what's right and wrong anymore. almost everything has been going against me, leaving me at wits end. sometimes, I WANT TO CRY!! my future, is enough giving me problems already. what should i do next time? will i be able to provide anything for my family? seriously , i wan to.. i must repay them for bringing me up. providing them with better and luxurious life is what i've wanted to do all these while. But , what is my future lying ahead? being in the mass media field, will i be able to compete with the better ones out there? music ..dance...design...arts... ccompeting is again the main issue. To success in theses areas , i have to be one of the best, if not no one gives a damn about you at all. forget abt even having a good life when u can't make money.lets just take music forexample, what can you do in the music industry? a variety of course... conductor,singer,performer,music producer,music teacher,music director,not much actually. with theses limited jobs you can perform in, you need to have some fame at least...to have at leasssst some success and secure your job.to be famous,you have you have to be good. but so what if you are good? don't forget about your competitors out there! they are all over the world! thousands of them~ having great prestige is definitely not baaaddd. but when a better competitor takes over you, you will be kicked out straight from the battlefield. It's as easy~ the world is cruel as it is. near future when we are working adults, humans are the same. it's really true when people say watch your back,before anyone stab you real harrrdd. They are willing to take on almost anything to betray you to achieve success and by the time you can only blame yourself..thats all! ..unless you step out and prove it to everyone, "i'm the best!" this is how i was in the past. i can't assure for now, i seems to have lost that confidence in me. damn it..i am just ...LOST.

2006-09-19T16:12:00.000+08:00

so i see, to think that i've talked to you nicely and thought that maybe you are not that arrogant and boastful after all, now you're getting back at me. sorry but i don't need a scounrel crawling back to me. those underhand plans of yours reminds me of a rat whith such low behaviour revolts me. DISGUSTING. having you as a friend simply brings me to shame and insult. you can jolly well go kill yourself and exit from this world, a person like you don't deserve to be in this world at all. GET IT? well, a leopard will never changes its spots. just admit that you don't have much friends simply because they don't want to hang around with an arrogant jerk. don't find any excuses like " i like dunwan to commit that's all" , u made me laugh , it's obvious. you once called someone a fucking backstabber, go look at yourself in the mirror first. are you one of them too? you've been so fake all these while, so don't bother putting up any hypocritical act anymore. seriously i don't hate right now, i just feel betrayed...in addition of many mixed feelings. just don't get it at all...

2006-09-16T15:40:00.000+08:00

Thanks to those who send me well wishes and to those who made my day!!THANK YOU!
again,i want to wish jwen happy birthday whom birthday falls on the same day as me hah ;) anddd..zakiah!hers falls on 22 sept if im not wrong XP heh.okay that flirty lass wun read this ..hah ~

2006-09-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

DELETED. ;)

2006-09-09T17:23:00.000+08:00

All the words that came out from my mouth are stucked in between my tongue that i can't even distinct a single thing from it. so,are you able to read my mouth?

i visualized us through that opaque window, oh and i put up a saccharine smile.
it's really making me looked like a moonstruck idiot .

when was it when your eyes first fixed on me?
i was envisioning if i could gaze at you all day, i would love to ;)

2006-09-09T14:28:00.000+08:00

damn i still miss him..

oh again..i don't think i miss him after all,it's just the memories doing mischief.
i've got better taste aight ;/

2006-09-08T21:20:00.000+08:00

i'm leading a damn fucked up life. ARGH.!!! ! ! ! ! ! !

2006-09-02T22:45:00.000+08:00

just fill your day with my fetish ;))

2006-08-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

2006-08-21T18:45:00.000+08:00

time doesn't matters. it's been deep enough till all the songs seems to fit the way i felt.
which is why i feels vulnerable sometimes..
the way u reminds me of deja vu..it's still glue within me like a sticky glue.
no matter how hard i tried to sway it away with all my strength,it just can't seems to get off .

2006-08-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

'dedicated to my favourite lover

Natalie(you're the one)
[Chorus] You're the one that I'm always gonna love And you're the one that I'm always thinking of It's so wonderful to knowbeautiful to know You're the one [Repeat Chorus] I remember the first time That I really looked you in your eyes I was thinking to myself There will never be nobody elseyea And from the moment that we touched You had me wide open with your love This simple way you grabbed my hand I'm so greatful that you are my manyea And I don't want you loose you I'll do anything at all Baby boyYou know I really do need you I'm always here when you call [Repeat Chorus] Now my whole life has changed Since you came around boyit's so great The way you make me feel within I'm so thankful that we're more than friendsyea And when you hold me it's so real Remember when you told me How you feel Staring face to face It's such a blessing I'll do what it takesyea What it takes to keep you I never wanna let you go Baby boy you know I can't be here without you I cherish everyday we grow [Repeat Chorus] I can't wait to be alone with youclose to you I just want to stay with you I feel okyou make my life complete I'm telling youI'm needing you I can't wait to be alone with youclose to you [Repeat Chorus]

2006-08-20T18:22:00.000+08:00

i gotta let you know i feel so weak without your touch. i never thought that i could ever love a man so much .
that's right baby,i'm going crazy .. i needa be your lady,i've been thinking lately that you and me,yes we can make .just ride with roll with i'm in love with you baby .
break it down i'll tell u what i feel from the moment that i met you it's been so damn real,my heart seems to skipped another beat everytime we speak even,can't believe i feel so weak .

'i feel really vulnerable sometimes .

2006-08-20T14:18:00.000+08:00

i can't post...now i can post...blog is so STUPID.

2006-08-12T21:10:00.000+08:00

ella requested me to help her to take care of her four kittens for 2 days but ended up i rejected her favour.i couldn't keep the kittens because of my dad obstinate temper,well after that incidence i guess he couldn't accept anymore of such thing. i felt awfully bad cuz she said she's going to let those kittens go stray..aiyerrrrr because of my dad...because of his self-importance,well he is always right.whatever we say are just BULLSHIT.~

'went down to cityhall after art today. i was wearing sch pe shorts and shoes...so embarrassed!!!!! xp

2006-08-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

BE STRONG,MY FRIEND ;)
well I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,she felt it, every dayand I couldn't help herI just watched her make the same mistakes againwhats wrong whats wrong nowso many, too many problemsdon't know where she belongswhere she belongsshe wants to go homebut nobodys homethats where she lies broken insideno place to go, no place to goto dry her eyes broken insideopen your eyesand look outsidefind the reasons whyyou've been rejectedand now you can't find what you've left behindbe strong be strong nowtoo many too many problemsdont' know where she belongswhere she belongsshe wants to go homebut nobodys homethats where she lies broken insideno place to go, no place to goto dry her eyes broken insideher feelings she hidesher dreams she can't findshe's losing her mindShe's fallen behindshe can't find her placeshe's losing her faithShe's fallen from graceshe's all over the place

2006-08-11T19:10:00.000+08:00

stop trying to act like a flirt,it doesn't suit you at all.

2006-08-09T02:51:00.000+08:00

you are interrupting my life,our lives,my friends so please can u just wake up from ur consciousness and stop your act in front of us.you're trying to be a two headed snake,no a three headed one!you're sucha big bloody hypocrite.YES,im already not very happy and getting really pissed off.i've not felt this way towards anyone before.this shows that there is something seriously wrong with you.ask me in a precise way,i've no idea too but this is really getting out of control.i loathe your arrogant and boastful accent,your intentions trying to get us feel sympathetic for you.YOU WON'T.OKAY?you're not our match. if you continue this way,sooner u'll just end up as a mokery ,as a dummy and toy for us.like how you are trying to come between us,you will never earn a part in this place because you are just at the tip of our fingers and we'll just toss you around like a bloody rat. joke?do u think this is funny?i don't think so,i don't owe u in your bloody past life ok,neither do i in present.! come on,we'll play along and lets see who turns out as a dumb arsehole.

'you are such a gullible rat.contradicting ? girls!becareful!this guy is gullible enough for u to have a good laugh yet he is a RAT!!!!

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2006-08-07T23:10:00.000+08:00

don't cry,inside we are stronger and tougher than anyone ;)
we've always been right?

2006-08-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

if you can sing me to sleep every night,this will be my sweetest dream of all time. ;)))

2006-08-06T20:17:00.000+08:00

its alright girls. we can cry our hearts out till dawn.But remember,we must be daring enough to face it and learn to love ourselves more than 'they' do. ;))

i like guys with small eyes,but i dun like guys with NO eyes lol.eg. . . . . . . duhhhhh

2006-08-04T17:42:00.000+08:00

baby, how long have this been going? its been a long time.

school wasn't much of a surprise lately,just more and more revisions ,school has become my second home.such state always ends up on the graduating classes, its just simply bloody hell ,right?thats all for schoool.
i don't mind being anti-social, we are..aint we? ;p

BAAAHHHH WAHHHH ARGHHHHHHH!!!!I REALLY GOT NTH TO UPDATE,IM GETTING BOREDDDDDD UPPPPPP.

2006-07-23T13:00:00.000+08:00

natalie imbruglia,torn
I thought I saw a man brought to life
he was warm he came around like he was dignified
he showed me what t was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
you don't seem to know - or seem to care what your heart s for
I don't know him anymore
there's nothing where he used to lie
my conversation has run dry
that's what's goin' on
nothing's fine
I'm torn
I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
lying naked on the floor
illusion never changed
into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn
you're a little late
I'm already torn
so I guess the fortune teller's right
I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light
but you `crawled beneath my veins and now I don't care, I have no luck
I don't miss it all that much
there's just so many things
that I can't touch
I'm tornt
here's nothing where he used to lie
my inspiration has run dry
that's what's goin' on
nothing's right
I'm torn...

2006-07-22T13:32:00.000+08:00

vice principle taught us maths few days ago and he asked for 'tammy' updates LOL and even suggested rick to 'shoot porn' ,he edit..wad the..amusing huh,vp saying this to us. & he winked at us...i was like OMG 'blushed'...

2006-07-21T23:06:00.000+08:00

today's not friday 13th, and i broke ma canvas board(its mended though..), eng lesson wasn't enjoyable , and got hit by rice grains!! helloo~do we look like pigeons?!?!?IRRITATING . next is my sis and me,not gonna dwell into it..forget it. she sucks anyway .

2006-07-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

Oni oni oni oni oni onikuu is such a meddlesome nun hahahhahahah XD~~

2006-07-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

For u willie ;) Cancer love horoscope for women
Warm and tender feelings mean a lot for this woman. Though volcanic passion may burn in her heart, she is more likely to be timid and cautious. Cancer woman may perform a great acting talent when she finds a right object to love. There are few men who can resist her languishing look and charming smile. She can’t stand being lonely. Romantic nights under the moonlight are necessary to her as breathing. Often Cancer has difficulty controlling her emotions. She takes love very serious and sex is definitely not a one-night stand. That’s why she rarely has affairs outside marital bonds. New things don’t attract her as she is a bit conservative. You can predict her and you can rely on her. Remember, that fidelity is of primary importance to Cancer.

angie and weiling .Leo love horoscope for women
Leo woman has instincts of a wild cat. She is brave enough to play with edged tools as all she wants is to make sure she didn’t stay unnoticed. When Leo appears she seems to attract everybody’s attention with a wave of wand. If you’ve become a center of her attention, your attempts to resist her charms are useless. When she is determined to get what she wants she won’t give up. Physical side of love relationships is vital to Leo woman. As she has high libido, men just stay in queue in order to win her attention. She is looking for a hero that can conquer and rule. Although don’t cut it far, or you can bring the beast out. The best way to tame Leo is to dispense lot of money on luxury things so that she could shine like a real star.

yufang. Virgo love horoscope for women
Virgo woman is extremely prudent and cool-headed. That’s why she approaches sex with realistic view. These women know how to control their feelings and will be patient enough to unveil them in the right moment. Virgo’s sexuality is a matter of time. As long as she has stable relationships she learns to get utmost satisfaction from lovemaking. She has a thing for your employment status. Imposing appearance of her partner can be more important than all romantic stuff.

mari.Libra love horoscope for women
Most Libras are extremely attractive and lovely. Elegance and sense of taste is her essence. Sexy Libras can take your erotic fantasies to the surface and make you a rebel of her beauty. Life with her can be really gratifying. She can’t live without love and her partner is an idol (as long as he can afford a good deal of expensive things on her). Libra woman is not only charming, but knows how to capture your attention with wit and brilliant mind. If you decide to steal a way to her heart, be prepared for her eternal hesitance and fluctuations of her mood. When Libra is searching for a partner, she expects at least a long-term relationship with all-time romantic air about it.

sandy. Aries love horoscope for women
You can compare her with a flame, as she can fire up man’s heart with a wet finger. She is self-assured and independent and can toss a challenge to the whole world, that’s why she won’t seek for a strong partner as he may get the upper hand. May be she needs somebody to rely on, but never will admit it. Hurry up! She won’t hesitate to make a first step when handsome man appears within her distance. The moment she makes up her mind to conquer you, her ingenious seduction plan is already calculated to details. She will put on the most provocative dress, send you juicy messages and make a date with you. She will never agree to play a small part in love relationship. As Aries woman goes her own way this can be easily referred to her intimate life. If you are hesitant and lack confidence - just don’t waste your time. You should be a real man to answer this challenge.

'i've nothing better to do..rather than trying harder for my next exam,which is why i flunked all ma subs.but im not disheartened either,im just playing hard to get hee

2006-07-17T17:32:00.000+08:00

i did a personality test ;)
here here..it goes.

highlight the words in green to see ans k deys.

cow,sheep,pig,tiger,horse. choose according to your preference

my ans:horse(family),sheep(love),tiger(pride),cow(career),pig(money)..yea true i hv no money sense at all hahaha
this implies on ur priority in life.

next ,use one word to describe these things; dog, cat, rat, coffee,sea
i described dog as friendly
cat, independent
rat, irritating
coffe, bitter
sea, relaxing

dog-own personality cat-ur partner's personality rat-ur enemies coffee- sex sea-ur life
hohohoh sex is bitter for me.....how true can tat be...yea i think so its BITTER!! but some simply LOVE it ;)

think of one person which remind u of these colours , yellow,orange,red,white,green
yellow..reminds me of ;) well tat was da first person which came into my mind u see..
orange,mari
red,angie
white,sandy
green,meixian

&&&&&...yellow is someone i never forget ;)) nice nice .
orange is someone u see as your true friend
red is someone u love....-_-" HAH HAH yea i love all my friends!!
white is your twin soul. hmm..i've doubts leh..sandy??hah lets see~
green is someone u will remember for da rest of ur life. wooo i will nv forget ma dancemates ;D

tats about it ,tats about it~

2006-07-15T22:47:00.000+08:00

i've sooo much things to update till i duno what to start with ..
in summarize,i've predict i will flunk ma exams...damn damn sure LOL. and chi oral..i've screwed up too..sian. heard that the lady is very fussy about marks..OH MI GAWD...
and hah yea,i sort of rotted at home . watch tv ,eat,watch tv,slp,go sch,watch tv,slp...that's about it hahahaha ;)

2006-07-09T12:26:00.000+08:00

The veronicas- when it all falls apart

i'm having the day from hell,
it was all going so well (before you came)
and you told me you needed space,
with a kiss on the side my face (not again)
and not to mention (the tears, ashame)
but i should have kicked your (ass instead)
i need intervention
attention to stop temptation to scream
cause baby
everything is fed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up where do i start
cuz i can't turn to you when it all falls apart
no
don't know where i parked my car
don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
i put my faith in you
what a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
and not to mention (i drank too much)
i'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
i need intervention
attention to stop temptation to scream
cause baby
everything is fed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up where do i start
cuz i can't turn to you when it all falls apart
no
can it be easier?can i just change my life?
cause it just seems to go bad everytime
will i be mending?
another one ending once again
everything is fed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up (out) where do i start
cuz i can't turn to you when it all falls apart
no (x2)
falls apart
gotta pick myself out cause things are mended

2006-07-09T12:13:00.000+08:00

i dream of my mum this morning. i dreamed that she was going somewhere ,she's leaving me. And tears started rolling down..rolling down..till i open my eyes,it just can't stop..

2006-07-08T23:11:00.000+08:00

im going to express all my love to my kids in future.i will never allow them to suffer in a broken family. i'll make sure they live in a happy family.i'll make sure my hubby love me forever.we will stay in a home,shower with love and love and love and lotsa loveee.

2006-07-08T16:01:00.000+08:00

ARIES FEMALE . Sandy ;)
You may appear to dislike men due to your extreme independence. However, nothing could be further from the truth. You are domineering and you have a rather nonchalant attitude. Your energetic and once aroused, you will be sexually aggressive. You like to make noise when you make love and in some ways you are like a wild animal in the bedroom, playful, vibrant and fearless. You like to use your body and are quite athletic both in and out of the sexual arena. You are a romantic, in love with love. You accept love as ones of life's little pleasures. You are a free spirit, always looking for a lover, not a father. You are an idealist. You go after whatever you want and you certainly won't take no for an answer. You have no trouble attracting men because you are always where the action is. You do not handle your money well which can cause a problem for the man who falls in love with you. You however are worth every cent that you cost your lover as you can stimulate him in ways that no one else can do.

You will not tolerate being bossed around by your mate. You hate have your space infringed upon and you can't stand it if your mate shows up late for a date. You like to be asked for advice and flattery always makes you feel important. You will never slow down and wait for your lover. It's keep up or get left behind. You match up to your sign and the remaining eleven signs as follows.

LEO FEMALE. angie =)
You need to be admired and desired. Unfortunately you tend to bestow your affections on the wrong men. You are extremely demanding when it comes to lovemaking. It isn't so much that you want to be love but you do want to be worshipped and adorned with all the nice things in life. You can tend to get lazy if you become too comfortable with your lover. Although you are dignified you can be domineering. You are vain, however you are also very generous. You can be faithful as long as your lover is affectionate.

LIBRA FEMALE. marilyn X)
You are noted for your grace, refinement and beauty as well as your repulsion to anything unattractive. You are meticulous in manner and dress and add a touch of elegance to all that surrounds you. Your goal is more to be admired by a man but if he is willing to boost your ego on a continuing basis you will show him how skilled you are at the art of lovemaking. You tend to prefer the artistic type of man, however your partner must also be highly lucrative in order to furnish you with the adornments that you require to keep you happy.

VIRGO FEMALE. Yufang ;D
You have some superficial standards about the man in your life. You insist that your partner be squeaky clean and practical and goal oriented. Your standards are set quite high and therefore it usually takes you longer to find someone that you feel is worthy to commit to. You do tend to marry late in life and only if the right knight in shining armor comes along. You are an excellent housekeeper, a strict parent and a good companion. You are attractive well into your middle years and often attract more men as you age.

2006-07-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

miao mee gone..i feel weird without his existance,i can't bear to and i miss him.

this subtle feeling,im sure its stronger than any other lovey dovey couples out there and i'm damn sure it will stay inside till i finally break down one day...this should be okay i guess.no big deal ;)

dun laugh at ma fringe !!! wadever.but hey it will grow k...mine takes one week..irriTAting. and thx ah..weekiat,i noe im cool .duh -_-'' u and ur pineapple head.( i noe he's nt reading this..tats y i post it here lalalalala~)

2006-07-04T19:08:00.000+08:00

i feel like a bitch now.
made him feel like a dummy ,im sorry.that all i can say..but i can't do anything ..
lucky i still have ma biatchy girlfriends ,at least i still see some lights hanging there for me ;) thx!!!luvyou luvyou luvyou luvyou guys!!
revealed myself and a takecare enjoy is all i get. i've gone to the extend showing my naked body,but i dont recieved a hug nor putting my clothes on back for me.im just left hanging there alone as insecurity embraces me.

just say u dont and so i can live on with my life too instead of leaving me in lurch to clean up this mess.
or just say u actually are too so i can add a smile and enjoy the moment of being loved.
don't ever do this to her,she's once bitten twice shy.

2006-07-03T14:12:00.000+08:00

ma cat went under DIY sterilization lol.he vomited greenish liquid ytd and bite his penis today.it was bleeding just now,oh mi god...now that haggard cat is lying under da dining table. kelian de miao meeee...gonna visit the vet someday if he doesn't show any signs of recovery.
but i think he look cuter this way hee hee hee :XX

2006-07-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

what's the world furthest distance.?
it's where i am right in front of you but you don't realize.

its grieving ,isn't it? how should she preserve her grief-stricken heart-to-be.
well,she's uncertain and she seek god's help.
god,how do u show your men u love them, forgive their arrogance and accept?
i know i shouldn't be feeling like this,and i loathe what i'm going through now,the sight of me act makes me puke,its repulsive. the moment i pull myself up of bed everyday,i knew its gonna be another hateful day.
sometimes i thought,god,why don't u just take me with you?everything seems to be sort of solve that way.

mummy's insane
daddy's weeping
children are terrified.
they live in a rectangular box
it ain't call home
they defined it house
teacher use to taught her f.a.m.i.l.y in kindergarten
Father And Mother I Love You
she stared at the words,those words aren't called sentance
years later,she still couldn't understand
she called them parents in her house
she said they have no face,only hair
she said they don't give hugs like how her boy gifted her with,only money.
she thought parents bought her from a baby shop and came to this world from a paper bag
it ain't call tummy
till she learn science in school and thought what are eggs and sperms
she was disgusted at the fact
its a grievance ,again isn't it?

2006-07-01T13:59:00.000+08:00

ng,mari,weiling and me were sitting ard da table and conversation started off like this..with smth abt fat guys
me:eeeww...i hate fat guys and i will never fall in love with one
ng:as if they will fall 4 u like tat hahaha
me:ya la,they wun fall for me i wun fall for them,isn't it better...duh
mari:hahahaha~(laughing her ass off) but we cannot decide 1 ma..wait one day we may really like a fat guy..who noes rite
weiling:ya lo..who noes..but guys normally like fat gers like...&*^$&*^%^*$%&
ng&me :STUNT*HUH?!..izzit???? i tot guys...hmm but i definitely wun like them for all my life..already feel disgusted at the sight of them ,i just can't bring myself to kiss and hug them -__-
suddenly,&%$#@^&%$ walked past..: hello!
all of us :WHAHAHAHAHAH ..oh mi god ..so bad
ng: irritated*
me:hah .den wad abt us..so pitiful
mari: lol ya lo, skinny chap like us bu shi worst
me:smirks* no wonder we gt no admirers LOL
ng:if u and ur husband are fat den ur child will have high chance of inheritance too leh..wad if next time he grow fat le den u and his child fat also how?
me:HUH??? he is nt naturally fat ma..BUT to hell with we are nt even together lo aiyooo angiiieee ..i definitely wun allow my child to be fat..dun care wad mother in law says bai bai pang pang very cute..TO HELL WITH U I SAY lol.
there's no moral in this story,juz filling up da space XD

we were also saying abt bite his maid *ipp** thingy..lol im still laughing at it..no mockery and humiliating,just a daily joke supplement for us.

i'm no good at expressing myself ,i prefer to let the song do the talking..
Natalise -how
You werent supposed to mean that much to me ;)
I wasnt supposed to fall in love ;)
You werent supposed to seem like you loved me
I wasnt supposed to lose control
But now youre gonna go
And now Im wondering why
Im left here to cry
[Chorus]How do you tell someone something they dont wanna hear?
And how do you tell someone about the object of their fear?
And how do say you changed my mind?
I love you so.
How do you make someone love you,
Someone love you, if they dont?
You werent supposed to make me wanna love you.
I wasnt supposed to give you my heart.
You werent supposed to break the rules of friendship.
I wasnt supposed to play that part.
But now youre gonna go
And now Im wondering
whyIm left here to cry
[Chorus]How do you tell someone something they dont wanna hear?
And how do you tell someone about the object of their fear?
And how do say you changed my mind?
I love you so.
How do you make someone love you,
Someone love you, if they dont?
Maybe I saw more than I should have
And maybe you saw more then you would have
But it remains that its you I need
Im so deep, Im so deep, I cant be saved.
[Chorus]How do you tell someone something they dont wanna hear?
And how do you tell someone about the object of their fear?
And how do say you changed my mind?
I love you so.
How do you make someone love you, Someone love you, if they dont?

Damn baby
Just don't understand where we went wrong
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave you...
As a matter of fact I was the one who said I love you first
It was about eight years ago, don't act like you don't know
We were sittin' at home in your mama's livin' room
Cause, we couldn't be alone
See your mama knew I was something else, she knew how I felt
Back then we were in school; and that's your favourite excuse
Growin' up I was a fool; and I can't lie I'm missing you
Listen and don't trip
I think I need a bottle with a genie in it
Here's my wish list
First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I'll take yours and fill it all the way up
Third one, but I don't need a lot of wishes cause I'll be okay if I get one
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I'd make you my whole life
And you'd be my wife, make it right this time
If I had one wishOne wish, one wish, one wish(repeated)
Now tell me is this the only way I can get you right back in
If so then searchin' I'll go, then I can have you for sho
Then you'll be loving me, holding me, kissing me
So girl don't tell me what I'm feeling is make believe
I swear if I lose a second chance with you
I wouldn't know what to do
I'd probably check myself into some kind of clinic
I couldn't be alone because without you I'm sick
Here's my wish list
First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I'll take yours and fill it all the way up
Third one, but I don't need a lot of wishes cause I'll be okay if I get one
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I'd make you my whole life
And you'd be my wife, make it right this time
If I had one wish
I don't even know how we ended upon this road
And, even though we are grown, Girl I just want you to know
If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I'd make you my whole life
And you'd be my wife, make it right this time

2006-06-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

Lifehouse-hanging by a moment. ;))

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where i Started
Chasing after you
i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you
forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me
now.. i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you
i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you
there's nothing else to lose
nothing left to find
there's nothing in the world
that could change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else...
Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
Closer where i Started
Chasing after you
i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you
i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you
just hanging by a moment
hanging by a moment..
hanging by a moment...
hanging by a moment here with you..

2006-06-27T20:45:00.000+08:00

life's getting boring these days after since sch started. yea sch juz started and works are just piling up everyday. worst thing is exam's starting next week and i've not prepared a single ,it's a pity and i shouldn't regret wasting my time during the june holidays.maybe i should just start off with ma worst sub science now,get on with my undone homeworks and simply pray that i'll be able to pass with a passing grade for midyear.well,at least a pass.

okay,things are getting boring and my life's too growing in a corrupted shell.
'mari and weiling said that's love..that's starting to love.but i really can't bring myself to accept ,when it started off with a glimps,a crush,den a lil contact to a slightly huge crush and to what it is now. we've got to move on with our own lives,i feel lonely seeing intimate couples passing by. &*(&_)*^&#$#$*)(*&&^ whatever.they say i got to get down with my confession oneday asap,if nt second year will be coming along soon.yes,i agree..maybe i shouldn't be a coward anymore,it's da 21st century GIRL..!!

2006-06-20T14:25:00.000+08:00

~~i don't agree with this ;)~~ LOL

my studs.ya.

i send out... and waited...waited....WAITED!!

still waiting. and i wonder

reminisence...ohhhh so sweeeet,tada!starsssss ;) (i was really thinking back,true emotions)

Its a LOVELY LOVE STORY.ENDS WITH A HAPPY ENDING ; ) ) )

HAH HAH HAH.!

2006-06-19T17:04:00.000+08:00

OH MI GAWD..waste my tears..!! can u freakarse out there imagine how IDIOTIC i feel now?....
yea..i feel like a total fool right now..wah piang!!! call me an idiot.i teach u how to be one.

2006-06-19T15:25:00.000+08:00

i dance to express nv to impress..you heard mi party go-ers./ boo da taiwan pops. express da song using lyrical shit. its 2004. snap back to reality.. its all abt quality not quantity. Aww.. 1,2...1,2...someone singing, got ppl crowdin tha stands/ ^Sorry about that bullshit, I was just counting ya fans// bOOO~ lol

EMCS, respect. we aint nobody, but somebody. we're a noob, yes we are. but its ok crew, we still look cool. its all about spirit, our soul in it, our mind in it. it blew us up like a new sensation, tastin with flava so amazing, asian pride for a new nation.we dont move with caotion crouch, no ducking or dodging, stomping when we're walking. check our status, then check our name. u wanna fight us then bite us. give us a year time, we'll freak u, fine. [ passion is wat we see ] [ no pain no gain is wat we realised ] peace out

copyright to mx. mx copyright to..? LOL ok fine ;)

2006-06-19T12:19:00.000+08:00

i will muster every ounce of confidence i have,for u i will.

i'm gonna play the show myself this time. ;) thx girls!

2006-06-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

erm...a year ..yea. exactly one year.
ma eyes drool like a rushing pipe today,i can't turn it off.

i wrote a song again..
if only i could turn back time,
i would never hide away,cuz i've been a coward all these while
it's time i release
it's time to accept facts
it's time we face each other
the naked memories

a year feels like decades
since the last time i saw your face
our eyes met each other so precede
the features got me charmed
you threw your charisma at me
and i grab it with my heart
it's wounded at first
but you sort of heal it
it's pretty now
and i hope it stays while
as long as the candy memories can survive
i promise to cherish it all i can.

i need abreak .i've yet taken a rest for the past one year.

2006-06-16T13:50:00.000+08:00

Artist: Paula DeandaSong: Doing Too Much
Lyric:"Doing Too Much"(feat. Baby Bash)
I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Why you tryna diss me
When I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing too much (too much)
This is turning into Something I ain't hip to Baby am I doing too much (too much)
See you got me all alone
Waitin right here by the phone
For you to call me, Just to hear Your voice tone
I keep on wondering if you was even Feeling me, I keep on wondering if
This was even meant to be
Tell me imma waste of time, boy
You showing me no sign, is it cuz u on
Ya grid, cuz your always on my mind I keep on wondering if everything you said was true
I keep on wondering if you were really coming through
Now here I go again blowing you up,
And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing too much
Now here I go again blowing you up,
And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing too much
I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Why you tryna diss me
When I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Tell me what's the issue Who I give these lips to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
This is turning into Something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
I'm out with my girls tryna have a good time
And you know I'm looking fly tryna meet sum other guys
But it gets hard sometimes cuz there ain't no one just like you
I try my best but I can't shake this thing u got me going through
All i can picture is the color of your eyes, and the way u make me smile
I ain't felt this in a while, But I came to a conclusion that this is pure illusion
Chaos and confusion but I'm not gonna let it ruin
The way I feel about myself cuz I have self-esteem,
sometimes I Wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy
The way I feel about myself cuz I have self-esteem,
sometimes I Wonder if I'm just chasing a fantasy
I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Why you tryna diss me
When I just wanna kiss you Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing too much (too much)
This is turning into Something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
[Baby Bash:] Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha
Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha Just leave ya name and number And I'm gon holla at cha
Ronnie Ray all day Women in the hall way, Ev day losing track of the people tryna call me
Don't take this the wrong way, I been havin long days, doing it, moving Round the town wherever I'm getting my song played
Now here I go again blowing you up,
And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing too much
Now here I go again blowing you up,
And my girlfriends keep telling me I'm doing too much
I'm leaving messages and voicemails
Telling you I miss you Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Why you tryna diss me
When I just wanna kiss you
Baby am I doing too much (too much)
Tell me what's the issue
Who I give these lips to Baby am I doing too much (too much)
This is turning into Something I ain't hip to
Baby am I doing too much (too much)Doing Too Much

mari,this sounds familiar ?and u girls keep telling me im doing too much .. ;)

2006-06-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

Atreyu-
Our Sick Story(thus far)

Does Your Body Still Scream My Name
Hold Your Breath To Keep In
Trapped With Secrets
Til You Die To Come Through With Guilt
Still Your Blood Is Filled
When I See The Blood Worth Coming
Would I Check Out The Blood
Even If I Was Dead
You Would Never Be On The Fucking Top
When You Kiss Me
Do You Still Taste Or
Are You Thinking Of Are You Thinking Of Me
With Your Lips Pressed Tightly Up Against His Skin
Does Your Body Still Scream My Name
Does Your Body Still Scream My Name
Can You Take It While I Fake It
Can You Take It While I Fake It(Cross Your Heart False Your Heart)x9
When You Kiss Me
Do You Still Taste Or
Are You Thinking Of Are You Thinking Of Me
With Your Lips Pressed Tightly Up Against His Skin
Does Your Body Still Scream My Name
Does Your Body Still Scream My Name
Does Your Body Still Scream My Name
With Your Lips Pressed Tightly Up Against His Skin
Are You Thinking Of Are You Thinking Of Me
Do You Still Taste Or
When You Kiss Me
My Mouth Is Full Of Love My Head Is Held In Shame
I See Your Face And It Tears Me Tears Me Up
Laid Deep In Simples Deep In Hate I See Your Face
When We Danced So Preceded

Everyone wants in on it.Everyone!Not just the cat,the pig and the dog.The horse too,the cow,the rhinoceros,the orang-utang,the horn-toad,the wombat,the duckbilled platypus,you name it.There's no peace any more and all because of that goddamn loaf of bread.
it's not easy,being a hen.
-good bones

im limpsy and fatigue from o lvl art. what more can i do other than this operose work,it's eating up my everything.:((((((((((((((((((

2006-06-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

Radio currently spinning to unfaithful by Rihanna. before tat was here without you by 3 doors down. right now after unfaithful is where'd u go by fort minor feat..eerr.i forgot lol
its boring .....theres ART EVERYday...and of cuz there is too TML...sian ah..but at least ma finaldesign is out ..yay!!!!!!!!finally~~~and tat cost me 2 whole days of hardwork and with some of yong's helping hand..well at least she's willing to sacrifice her time for us everyday till 6pm.THANK YOU SO MUCH,but put tat smile on ur face more ,u definitely look more beautiful with it ;) (doubt u will see tis hah~~~~~forget it)
gayle didn't made it to top 12 in sg idol, :( i thought she was great
aite im turning bonkers now RIGHTNOW THIS MOMENT!!!!so....got to stop here,urrrhhhh!~

2006-06-04T03:05:00.000+08:00

Here Without You
(Music by Arnold, Roberts & Harrell)
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me.
Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls, when it's all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl, there's only you and me

2006-06-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

ok.something went wrong with ma pc few days back,and here i am back right now!finally..

okay...what now..
yea mari!!lets return back someday again,i love tat cheesy spread over spaghetti,yum yum yummy!when i say lao di fang k!
hmmm...new photo updates..maybe later ya,im tired now. aite . ;)

2006-05-29T22:51:00.000+08:00

O lvl chi has finally ended..pray hard that i don't have to retake ...amen.

ma upper left eyelid swollen like shit..oucchhh :(( how to grab for singapre great sales tml...!!

i heard tis chi song on mtv..title?duno..sang by twins.
wo hen xiang ai ta,
ying man bi jiao rong yi ba,
mian de gan qing bian fu zha,
ke lian de shi mei you yong qi xuan zhe.

i yearn for this love,
but i guess holding back is easier,
to avoid this relationship turn complicated
it's miserable that i don't have the courage to choose.

2006-05-27T17:05:00.000+08:00

two days of chinese intensive..almost drived me insane . argh!!
BUT after intensive,we plead wholly enjoyment throughout! ;)
aite.lets start with this ..

LOL.any comments? my ears are huge ,its sticking out..irriTAting
in teacher's resting area. i look awful yuck~

after chinese,slacking at civic library. notice i doesn't look very hardworking throughout whaha!

mari and jialei ;) im nt suppose to be in tis pic though heh.

yuf,jialei,mari!! er..mari..for christ sake...virgin mary's sake...hah

us at teacher's rest area carrying out our chi xtra intentive.
er..wear specs boy,whatcha doin?videoing tat..harshbrown..weiling!

On Friday.....
tats da bgirls at pastamania! 3 to da left,1st to da extreme right.:)

bgirl chiefob &bgirl yuf

bgirl ann & " yuf

aftermath of blueberry muffin heh

jialei,weiling and mari. engrossed.....

hmm..boty singapore (battle of the year)cum streetfest bboy comp on 16-18june at *scape youthpark! anyone interested?!
good luck again to norbin and ftc! to kel and enemyground~to inertia! sums up to all bboys&bgirls!! ;)

'heard boty finals will be carry out in thailand.......... :((((((((.........

2006-05-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

Daniel powter
Free loop

I'm a little used to calling outside your name
I wont see you tonight so I can keep from going insane
But I don't know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah
I've been fabulous through to fight my town a name
I'll be stooped tomorrow if I don't leave as them both the same
But I dont know enough, I get some kinda lazy day
Hey yeah
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
I'm a little used to wandering outside the rain
You can leave me tomorrow if it suits you just the same
But I don't know enough, I need someone who leaves the day
Hey yeah
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can baby
We can change and feel alright
Cause it's hard for me to lose
In my life I've found only time will tell
And I will figure out that we can baby
We can do a one night stand, yeah
And it's hard for me to lose in my life
I've found outside your skin right near the fire
That we can babyWe can change and feel alright

'theme song of "it started from a kiss". ;))
first chi song hah i know its so damn long.those in bold purple describes my thoughts ;)

Jason&Lara - Say U Love Me 专辑:恶作剧之吻电视原声带
Say that you love me
Say that you care
Say that you love me
Say that you care
遇到对的人是种缘分
我不得不承认
女生还是该要有分寸
你要去瞄准你要的人
不再被动的等
送上嘴唇变成你的人
我认识一个女孩
她天真活泼可爱
在等待
有个人可以给她一身三千宠爱
不需要很有钱
不需要很帅
她脾气古怪
有时候包容有时候你必须忍耐
为什么
她竟然爱上他
她到底在想什么
她是否忘了帅哥不能爱
是什么
让她乱了方寸不知道该做什么
我想说这怎么可能她舍得
舍弃自己的尊严与爱好女追男的游戏
一点都不害臊一天到晚在他身边又闹又吵
只为了能够被他瞪一眼就好 看她在这边
而他在那边 她想被他捧在手心上面
而他装做视而不见脑袋中却浮现
眼前尽是她在微笑的画面而她说
遇到对的人是种缘分我不得不承认
女生还是该要有分寸你要去瞄准你要的人
不再被动的等 送上嘴唇变成你的人
Say that you love me
Say that you care
女生还是该要有分寸遇到对的人
Say that you love me
Say that you care
不再被动的等送上嘴唇变成你的人
从头来过要快乐不要难过
不要谎言要承诺他和她的爱情绝不懒惰
就算有不安定的因素随时出没她也能排除万难和他一起渡过
渡过这漫漫长冬长冬后满面春风
春风吹到他心中心中尽是无限的感动
她不再去注意他任何的一举一动才发现自己早已不小心陷入其中
他知道我想是他知道所有她的一切他都知道
他看到了她如此掏肺掏心心里早就想把她抱紧
不管未来艰难险阻再多只管现在能够相爱再说
想一起完成的事情太多就怕时间不够
而她说遇到对的人是种缘分
我不得不承认女生还是该要有分寸
你要去瞄准你要的人不再被动的等送上嘴唇变成你的人
Say that you love me
Say that you care
女生还是该要有分寸遇到对的人
Say that you love me
Say that you care
不再被动的等送上嘴唇变成你的人
Say that you love me
Say that you care
Say that you love me
Say that you care

2006-05-23T18:10:00.000+08:00

BIT more pictures...

Jessica Raffa,wish i could hv such nice body like her.....

Ng & mari~

Mari & me. ma eyes look watery..eewww

2006-05-23T16:34:00.000+08:00

i've update da photos@laopasat!! girls night out------>-------------->
featuring mari.yufang.angie. photographer,sandy!

me.!ah huh~

mari~shiny lips hah
tada~anigee ;)expression nv changes hmm..

me.. we love camwhoring ;))

mari&sandy--------------------------------->this...

------------------------------------------------->ng...u look weird lol ;P

FOO:D:D:D:D oily...deep fried twisted dough sticks..ooo

STRINGRAY!favours~HEAVENLY ma rice.....leftover ones,grab some dehs lol

ahh..mari,wad did u say tat time?u saw this?.....hohohoho

2006-05-23T12:08:00.000+08:00

now im gonna post a whole CHUNK of photos up here..
first,will be da pics of this taiwan show "It started from a kiss"(er zhuo ju zi wen)i took few mths backs ..heh these photos have been stored in ma cam till it's starting to collect dust.
starting theme of the show.."say u love me"~ say tat u love me ..say tat u care ;) abit blur(cuz i ENLARGE it..pics damn tiny)
starring linyichen as yuan xiang qing(left) & zhenyuanchang as jiang zhi shu(right)
i started cam-ing da show during 2nd part of it..so da pics here already startedhalfway through ..heh. zhishu was attending his dad's company's party before tis ,but he couldn't stand da boresome crowd there and left for hm.(actually he worried of da lonesome xiangqin being left at hm.it was xmas night)xiangqin was shocked and there they started their lame conversation(i wun emphasize on tat) to her surpise...he bought her a chocolate cake!! hee hee
so sweet ;P
next day,zs's dad hope he's willing to be his successor after his dad retire,but he rejected rudishly which aroused his mum's temper..he left da hse immediately,with xq going after behind.he told xq he wanted to be a doctor..no one knows abt it,except her.

on zs's bday,xq made a model of a house for zs,preparing to give it him(he was staying in his own rental condo tat period still)...
there she goes making wild imagination again..one of it was zs...well u can c it urself lol

he wasn't ard.she left da present at his doorstep.BUT he had already move back hm,she doesn't knows abt it. xq reached hm and saw him with his luggage..woo~~over the moon she was!
xq wished him happy bday , but he said"it's already after 12"
xq:i've left the present outside ur condo..but..nvm.

next morning,xq was jovial upon zs's return,hah she wasn't dreamin afterall.zs:i shall hope tat u wun cause me anymore trouble" ...both r actually feelin happy inwardly..hoh~

their holloween party.xq asked to doll up as er..jap ghost?LOL . there's i-forgot-her-name ;P confessing her love to zs..but zs was already "in love" with xq by then,ohhh tats sad..

tat's them .started their first kiss!!!,tis was in da 1st part of the show..xq was juz reminiscing back. awwww so sweeetttttt!!

zq's dad was met up with some health crisis,i shall nt delve into tat.zs could do nth but accept to take over his dad for a period,which meant he couldn't pursue his dream anymore.
xq&zs... :( ..wish i could too,whoever's feeling down..;)

an old business man looked up to zq's ability and decided to match his grandaughter and zq together. in order to improve the company's dire situation,he could only accept the marriage...i cried here!!for xq... :(((((

xq's dad decided to move out of zq's family.see...xq was devastated upon hearing this...............

zs with da whoever grandaughter...&xq with ah jing(xq's admirer since sec sch)
ah jing finally propose to her.he wanted to take care of xq rest of his life, but she was hesitant..kiss kiss kiss..bah!!she ran away...afterall..she couldn't forget zs...

at the same time...zs rejected "grandaughter" too and finally realised xq importance...FINALLY came to his sense ..duhhh. his confession.. ;))))) i wan tis toooo...ouuuhhhh
'third' kiss heh heh im really smiling now.. :D
propose that night..

marriage...aaaawwwwwwwww ...zhengyuanchang in gown,sexy uh uh.

THE END. i want more..more kisssssessssss!! <333333

2006-05-20T19:23:00.000+08:00

i stumbled across this quiz on getting to know yourself better.
here are da result!

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

The Real You
Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right? (i've start reading books since i've sucked my first mouthful of milk out of my mum's nipple.this is utterly untrue ;P)
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle.
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 55%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.
(that's great what, nothin to be worry about.)

check this out ;) http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2006-05-20T17:10:00.000+08:00

NAFA.? music?. should I?
aiyah...bored

2006-05-17T22:25:00.000+08:00

when can i ever watch..?
when will i ever..?
should i just...?
okay fine..whatever.

had eng paper 1 first prelim just nw and i chose to write the story.But i scribbled nonsense on the paper lol,i'm definitely out of point ..damn ahhh shouldn't hv chosen tat topic :(
but anyway..it's fine.it's JUST a prelim paper heh. tml's chi and eng paper 2...chineseeee,hope i can do my best and pour all my knowledge of chi for my o lvl ..which is...2 weeks away from NOW.

'anyone out there having any exams these few weeks,GOODDD LUCK ;)

2006-05-14T22:47:00.000+08:00

The Stars
One More Night

Try as he might he's unable to speak
He grabs her by the hair, he strokes her on the cheek
The bed is unmade like everything is
Dark little heaven at the top of the stairs
Take me like that, ruin it all
Then build it again by the light in the hall
He drops to his knees says please my love, please
I'll kill who you hate, take off that dress, you won't freeze
One more night, that was a good one
One more night, i dreamed it was a good one
One more, one more night, that was a good one
One more night, the end should be a good one
A good one
He starts with her back cause that's what he sees
When she's breaking his heart she still fucks like a tease
Release to the sky, look him straight in the eye
And tell him that now, that you wish he would die
You'll never touch him again so get what you can
Leaving him empty just because he's a man
So good when it ends, they'll never be friends
One more night, that's all they can spend
One more night, that was a good one
One more night, i dreamed it was a good one
One more, one more night, that was a good one
One more night, the end should be a good one
A good one

'why must i accept it again.
my limits i surpassed
for i had dignity.
when will i ever learn my lesson again?

2006-05-14T13:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!! I LOVE MUMMY ;)

2006-05-12T23:49:00.000+08:00

i need a long hiatus desperately,someone please offer me .
sick of doing everything for any reason, that's senseless to me now. im finally feeling like a teenager...

2006-05-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

yea she willlll be love. yea she willll be love ....

2006-05-11T17:25:00.000+08:00

o my god..feeling nauseous now..absorbed too much water .maybe. plus the smell of duno wad my mum's cooking now.. worse. -_-'''''''

2006-05-11T16:02:00.000+08:00

how lame the guys get...

representing 5B!!;)

going from left to right.Nisham,rick peh,ariff,calvin,azizi & azmi.hmm..wad's this?battle huh?

nice 1 ah,poor azmi..last one lol.

eh pleeease lah..-_- ariff gonna kiss da camera lol

cool *come come,grab one on da battlefield.azmi looks innocent.huh?

oh godddd. we're da only survivor!yea..against da whiteboard..duh.

hah! azmi big boss!!ariff..wad's tat,marker?LOL.wad brand?

feat.rickpeh,azmi,bigboy azizi ;P

THAT'S THEM!! dope ass 5b!!

hah!i stole the photos from rick's heh:) copyright: rickpeh. k?

2006-05-10T17:13:00.000+08:00

please allow me to use the art of vulgarity here.

^&%&*)*^*%$#^&&*(^76$$*(&&()*^%*%(()@#@#$@@%$&^$%5&^789

im tired of all these.stress from attending to school work everyday and WORK on weekends.i'm really getting out of ma mind.apart from being isolated from the world's issue,i'm even less than a fashionmonger.outdated and worned out in solitary arena. i need to be busting lose now and escape through this confinement for the past 4 months.

p.s:sorry to express with vulgars,that was what's really in my mind .abit unrefine though,but straight from my heart that precise moment, :(

2006-05-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

just got home from town.mari,sandy,ng and me spent our day at far east.it really made us tipsy turvy in the mall,there were so much things we craved for and yet i had to control myself from buying everything which i favour. my brain is not functionally well enough now,so u see..i can't think of anymore now,therefore my brain desperately needs to be rest and off right now this critical moment. this is not doing any good to my health,i got to slp nw........damn.tired. -_-zZzzz

'i've grab some photos and i'll update them asap till i got the pictures upload..i will blog the whole event by then.(;

im really tired lah.aiyooo ..slp now slp now,later still got work......wahhhhhhhhhhh
gd night:)

2006-05-03T17:39:00.000+08:00

i love mdm wong!!!she made algebra seems so easy..all tick .tick .tick.tick heh;) finally find maths not so boring ,thx to her..i'm gonna score for maths ,it's possible k!
mr poh's eng lesson always dope! love his "yo work it out man" and "yourrrrr HEad ar!"wahahaha!
have to say mr chong flunk as a teacher who "teach"..lesson is okay but i really don't understand anything he taught..prefer tan 1 leh..physics lecture is fun!and i finally know so much things abt physics in one lecture.2nd year teaching us and i still failed his test,i've never passed well before.
i drink water in class after recess and he said "shame on u"(tats his slogan lah) but what u meant?u mean u've never drink before?so u mean it's a shamful thing to drink water in class huh?! all u know is only star trek .FUNNY.

'but i will give men as the price for fire an evil thing in which they may all be glad of heart while they embrace their destruction.' -Pandora's box

2006-05-02T19:24:00.000+08:00

hmm*just ate my dinner and i'm so bloated now-.-" i had mee hoon soup heh;)
really very damn,i wanna lose weight and i'm on diet now but yet i still eat so much ..irritating lar.
i want to lose weight!!i wan to be 45kg!!!!!!!!LOL,and pls..im not skinny okay,u guys damn skinny can!!say me...-_-''

' i really can't cliche with ma sis ,vice versa.
hey i've got a new dream career~i wanna be a mtv vj heh;)

so damn fcuked up just now,i went for the appointment and the lady told me off peak hr is after 4pm,then why didn't the lady inform me when i called to change my appointment!?!?!!!! can u just go bang ur head on da wall?! grrrrrrr....i.d.10.t

2006-05-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

[Mike - Spoken]You ready? Lets go!Yeah, for those of you that want to know what we're all about It's like this y'all (c'mon!)

[Chorus]It's just ten percent luck,
Twenty percent skill,
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will,
Five percent pleasure,
Fifty percent pain,
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

[Mike]
MikeHe doesn't need his name up in lightsHe just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the micHe feels so unlike everybody else, aloneIn spite of the fact that some people still think that they know himBut fuck em'He knows the code:It's not about the salaryIt's about reality and making some noiseMakin the storyMakin sure his clique stays upThat means when he puts it down Tak's pickin it up!

[Tak]
Who the hell is he anyway?He never really talks muchNever concerned with status but still leavin them star struckHumbled through opportunities given to him despite the factThat many misjudge him because he makes a livin from writin rapsPut it together himself, now the picture connectsNever askin for someone's help, to get some respectHe's only focused on what he wrote, his will is beyond reachAnd now when it all unfolds, the skill of an artist

[Ryu]
It's just twenty percent skillEighty percent fearBe one hundred percent clear cause Ryu is illWho would've thought that he'd be the one to set the west in flamesAnd I heard him wreckin with The Crystal Method, "Name Of The Game"Came back dropped Megadef, took em to churchI'm like bleach man, why you have the stupidest verse?This dude is the truth, now everybody be givin him guest spotsHis stock's through the roof I heard he fuckin with S-Dot!

[Chorus]
It's just ten percent luck,
Twenty percent skill,
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will,
Five percent pleasure,
Fifty percent pain,
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

[Ryu]
They call him Ryu the sickAnd he's spittin fire with MikeGot him out the dryer he's hotFound him in Fort Minor with TakBeen a fuckin annihilist porcupineHe's a prick, he's a cockThe type woman want to be withAnd rappers hope he get shotEight years in the makinPatiently waitin to blowNow the record with shinoda's takin over the globeHe's got a partner in crime his shit is equally dopeYou wont believe the kind of shit that comes out of this kid's throat

[Tak]
TakHe's not your everyday on the blockHe knows how to work with what he's gotMakin his way to the topPeople think its a common owners namePeople keep askin him was it given at birth,Or does it stand for an acronym?No he's livin proof,Got him rockin the boothHe'll get you buzzin quicker than a shot of vodka with juiceHim and his crew are known around as one of the bestDedicated to what they doin give a 100%

[Mike]
Forget MikeNobody really knows how or why he works so hardIt seems like he's never got timeBecause he writes every note and he writes every lineAnd I've seen him at work when that light goes on in his mindIt's like a design is written in his head every timeBefore he even touches a key or speaks in a rhymeAnd those motherfuckers he runs with, those kids that he signed?Ridiculous, without even trying, how do they do it?!

[Chorus]
It's just ten percent luck,
Twenty percent skill,
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will,
Five percent pleasure,
Fifty percent pain,
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

[Outro - Mike]Yeah! Fort Minor!M. Shinoda, Styles of Beyond!Ryu, Takbir!Machine Shop!

its just 10% luck.20% skill. 15% concentrated power of will. 5% pleasure. 50% pain. yea

'u said i was unfriendly ,so wad's more u wanna say bout me.?
slept at 5am ytd,chatted with norbin while he was playing game..damn.he dunwan say brb,i lose.i was talking gibberish la..but still u own me chocolate panda biscuit!!hee. muhahah

2006-05-01T00:48:00.000+08:00

@ shop. ah ca (kim moh's) hp

damn.her hp so hard to operate,tried so long only 2 pics.still called me stupid..arrrrgh kim moh arrr!!!

what if i'm to forget?when the world gave up its embrace for me.

leaving me solitarily as a miserable soul.

this uncurable illness,i'm gonna confront it alone till doom approaches me one day.

and that's when i will be deviate from this world forever.

hope of life has wrote me off.

'last performance with band on speech day :((((((( everyone's feeling so emo after da performance while we played 'blue ridge saga' and 'singapore rhapsody'.....maaaaan!!and i couldn't hold back my tears,well..all of us can't. esp blue ridge, reminisce the days of 4 years back, and now here in sec 5 i'm really leaving. left with all the good old memories.it seems as though everything happened just yesterday,time flies too fast more than i expect,i will miss you guys.miss woodland's concert band.miss flute and i'm not going to end it here,it's a long way to go,my musical..my music i can't live without.

'i miss you guys larrr!!!

2006-04-26T19:59:00.000+08:00

my dad is a dancer and he said hip hop for life.bboy for life.dancer for life. dance while u can ;)

i dreamt..'

2006-04-26T15:54:00.000+08:00

arg.!ma leg and back are aching so much nw..nafa test ytd and i really can't jump man.tried so hard but yet still :(..
din go sch today ,i really can't get myself out of the bed and it's really painful!!the strain all over ma body..thigh muscles and the pain on ma back make me can't even stand straight nw..my neck..waahhh its a torment ,fcuk.

/why am i feeling this way?! wad is there to be unhappy abt ?whaaat am i thinkiiiing?
bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch bitch biaaattch...i guess i'm really too possessive over it and temperamental, so i shouldn't be acting this way.and i shouldn't care.i don't give a damn

pictures lie,everyone loves dancing. ;)

2006-04-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

just read sherene's blog just nw cuz ng ask me to see who her wlng refering to..and i think is weiling . not all of u.but tat's very bad of her though, as if ppl own her in their past life ..hmm.
at least she commented 5b cls-tee was nice(i really think so too lol).

/damn.yong flared at us today..whole of the art cls.she really screamed her head off man..no idea y also..whole cls was like.........................................................(-_-) pms i guess lol cuz i notice a few pimples on her forehead and her tummy was rather bloated today bhahaha!!;P

2006-04-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

so many sketches to complete....arg!!!!...........

/ivan just asked me out..but i told him i won't be free these days (which is true enough tat i really will not be free!!!),and he sounded quite unhappy after tat. huh?i was like......eH? wad hv i done wrong man. but i hope he wun take it too hard against me. -_-''

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come to this..i haven't been meeting *him for a long long long long long period le..i really wasn't able to fork out anytime .. and he also seems to be practising alot these days:( duno he gt miss me or nt ho ..? LOL!! ;P

2006-04-23T21:18:00.000+08:00

wad kind of impression do i give ppl?
cold. hard to get close. i hope not.

quiet,friendly,funny,amusing,cheerful,bubbly,crazy..well i think i am lol;P
but i really can't quite understand myself..

i feel as if ppl see me as someone with parents to dote on,care for and therefore i don't hv to do anything..like a vase..
they always do the job,i wanna join in..but i seems so useless :(

2006-04-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

came across this blog of 2 gays kero and colin. they are so so so lovin,damn. www.colinandkero.blogspot.com
well..i hv no airs against gays ..still humans ..ain't they?nth wrong being brought up to like ur own sexes.
i hv to admit both of them are quite gd looking atually, cute in fact..abit too cute for a straight's behaviour, hai :( no wonder nowdays gers can't find their right guy..so they've all became gays ..hmm sad
but i dun mind being friends with them,they make great sistas instead yeah! ;) i haven't came across one..but any out who wanna share all ur secrets feel free k!! it's gonna be fully girls talk!!;P lol

2006-04-22T10:44:00.000+08:00

juz woke up. time now is 10.44am..still tired but i can't seems to slp anymore.damn.

juz realised tat so many ppl taking part in da levis comp..wdl already gt a few bunch,and some of ma frens and ftc also(suppose to)..but,hmm..nvm ;)
mari!tat time we gt thought of taking part also rite!!?lol ! few mths back..but we give chance la ho..let other ppl win so we din join muhahahahahaha!!:P

2006-04-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

shit..my face sux ..im so ugly now.. *&&*(*(&&*^((***$$&*^$!#$3847320JDNRSEJDSMNCjkEWHESD Cjsdhreurehrejrnv

2006-04-21T14:57:00.000+08:00

woo..ariffin ran like....wow..i can't find any words to describe nw..proud of him ;)
okay la..congrats to anyone everyone who won juz nw..and 5a too! sec 5 will always stand united! we may not be academical strong as u all..but at least we made it here..in sec 5 and we shall do our best. 5a always perform well in studies,5b are de artist! at least we are better in creative wise lol ;P

2006-04-20T19:22:00.000+08:00

just came back from stadium..1500m just now and tml's sports day.
after 1500,my cls stayed behind for our long awaited cls tee..cuz iznur and ariffin went all da way down paya lebar to get it for us.thx to them ;) da cls tee's soo so so so nice!!we love it man!thx again to the person who design it~guess it was iznur.
after tat,we planned for our cls formation for phototaking tml at stadium.it wasn't tat bad..everyone was co-operative and rick did his part as a monitor,we did not regret voting him as the monitor cuz he was great! 3 cheers to ya!:)
gothic tml?yea...lets freak them out.
-featuring gothia'5b! bleh..

'i wanna dance again..who've got da passion?

2006-04-19T19:30:00.000+08:00

shouted at her just now..and i really regreted it,i wan apologise.but i'm still on my nerves.
stress allow me to vent my anger on her.i shouldn't hv done it..
i felt sorry for her,throughout my life till now..i'm so unfilial..i loath wad i've done..
i love her alot..but i just can't learn to express myself
i hate myself for i can't express through words.damn.

i want them to understand,
wad i really am thinking
are unexplainable in words
just dig my heart out
and all secrets will reveal
that those are the emotionals which kept my soul for all these years

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Daddy,mummy,i love you. ;)

2006-04-18T18:39:00.000+08:00

it's time for me to get to know you more ;)

i think we are destinied..
and u should start believing in me.

2006-04-17T16:35:00.000+08:00

love is an abysmal word which there is no proper illustration to it.
u understand? i don't and no one will,so therefore it shall remain its mystic

when someone says "i will love u forever"..i bet ya..it's so damn fake,u think we believe?whaha lets see..(;
dun say u love someone till u know wad's da colour of their shit and da amount of hair around their body.bleah~: well..u may say u are interested in instead.

'damn.. so many homeworks left to complete. leave me alone
i mean it when i say i REALLY dun feel like running, simply cuz i'm lazy..can?argh -_-"

i miss u so...
seems like it's been forever
tat u've been gone
i miss u so.i miss u so.i miss u so..so.so.so.so.damn ...much hah
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oh ya..ivan msg me ytd cuz he managed to know tat i like hip hop culture and fond of bboying,he seems quite into it too..so we had quite a long msg converstation ..er..from 5+ till..11+...wow.
next time we gt sessions sure call u down k! we shall all practice hard and outstand the others!we can do it man! u've got soul k,dope.lol but btw we nt only does bboying..also does street jazz too..so if ivan dun mind ..com' join us man he he he ;P sexy moves , tilt ya butt..OUh!yeeaa..er chi dance?lol~

2006-04-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

chairs is causing me nauseate ..

2006-04-13T20:16:00.000+08:00

i love 5b!!man.i'm starting to love u guys so much!5a's so scary..too much affairs.im glad that i'm not in 5a..although all my frens are(mari,ng,denise,weiling,jialei)seems like they also quite fustrated with their cls. we may not be outstanding,but we don't quarrel.we don't backstab.we don't despise others.last but not least,we love each other ;p
5b!5b!aye aye ayeeee <3 lol

2006-04-11T17:04:00.000+08:00

whahaha!! damn.tat female dog thinks people who reads her blog worships her!!tats really amusing.i happen to read her blog..so i happen to worship her?LOL CHILDISH.L.A.M.E.
some loathsome ppl will definitely get their retribution one day.she's almost dehumanized till the extend tat she is left to appear in a humane form.
what she wrote in her blog has finally protrude her unrefiness in the attitude and behaviour.such detestable act should deserve the punishment and btw..the 'usually' unsightly look of her has increasingly been disfigured to again more unsightful,hopes she gets deface oneday! she ASSUME that her blog is famous now..i doubt so..shouldn't it be notorious?,see..she can't even get her vocab right..and still hv the cheek to boast abt it..i seriously don't know what is there to boast abt..about vp and p knowing ur blog? for GODNESS sake..she insulted someone and vp,p doesn't hold it against her!!?tat's so unfair for GOOOOODDDD sake!i mean godddd...jesus.not some childish person who thinks tat ppl who reads her blog worship her..thinking of tat..don't you think its so so amusing?
we used to be gd friend when we were in primary sch,but for some reason,friendship ended.still rmb how she insulted and mocked at me during tat period and we haven had any conversation for 6 years..now it's time for us to mock at ur childish language!!boorish creature.
and please..telling everyone tat u're gonna make prank calls to ur hatred enemies?isn't tat stupid?guess u hv da whole world to call then..enjoy making ur prank calls.bleh'

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damn.freako.certain ppl hv the courage to live on despite the monstrous creature living in their body,i'll be dead by now.

2006-04-11T16:05:00.000+08:00

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,

Some days I wanna quit,

and just be normal for a bit,

"I don't understand why you have to always be gone,

I get along but the trips always feel so long,

And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,

'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,

But I feel like an idiot,

workin' my day around the call,

But when I pick up I don't have much to say,

So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin',

at times debatin',Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,

Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,

Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,

But now, you only stop by every once in a while,

Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,

Doin' anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,

I'm doin' fine, and I'm plannin to keep it that way,

You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,

And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin',

at times debatin',

Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,

Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone,

Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,

That I'm stuck here waitin',

no longer debatin',

Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,

For why you're not around,

and feeling so useless,

It seems one thing has been true all along,

You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,

I guess I've had it with you and your career,

When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Where'd you go?

I miss you so,

Seems like it's been forever,

That you've been gone.

Please come back home...x5

where'd u go by fort minor feat. holly brook and jonah matranga.

i like it.i like it.i lik lik lik it.tis way.

2006-04-10T19:46:00.000+08:00

i think...i guess..

i fell in love with a bboy

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and a policeman.

2006-04-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

band performed for Minister of health,Mr kawh boon wan today at fuchun..i hv to admit it's boring!bored bored bored bored bored bored me to death!! i hate outdoor performance. but mr kawh boon wan look so cute lol!!aged looks kind of cute to me..
'on the way back to school,the bus passed by hp's area,where i use to hang out last time..out of the blue,i sort of missed the old days.damn. i don't know y..tried to search for his hse ,12th floor..
the time we always 'da bao' food to his hse .eat and watch tv ,vcd .use com.played game.snatched com with him and er ya..ice..his family beloved dog.use to watch him play bball with his friends. 338 and tekong. he took care of me when i had chicken pox.when i was sick. use to cook for me,or he rather cook himself..i'm nt gd at it lol ;D the good old damn blardy memories.i don't miss u..i miss the days.

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a message u gave, a concern counts. A qns u ask, a care counts.
when i wasn't feeling well the past few days,thx for your care and concern
at least i know someone cares. that few mins,even though its for a friend.but i don't know how you really feels. if u're willing to take care of me,i will try not to be stubborn,i will listen to wad u say cuz i know it's always good for me.i promise i will see the doctor when i'm nt feeling well.i know i am physically weak,so i will take care of myself .

2006-04-06T14:08:00.000+08:00

i feel so weak now......

like a dying beast...

this is torturing
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i'm bleeding ,my organs are bleeding profusively; dashing out of my skin and i can't take it anymore..

help me.. ....

2006-04-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

'had cheerleading competition today..our cls did not perform well ..seriously not smooth at all,man!i assure u guys total amusement if u see our performance today LOL!!we merely had fun and entertaiment with ourselves on da stage and treated the audience transparent whahah~although we did not perform our best but we really had fun throughout,so wad if they think " eh!apa ni!!" or "hey wad the f*** sia!" heck care! though i had many performing experiences on stage,but this was the first time i wasn't nervous at all compare to the previous ones ...maaaaaaaannn woooo!! we may not be the champion,but to us we are the best!!aight ;)

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''during eng period today,we had to write a discussion compo on our "weaknesses" and "strengths". i wrote musically inclined as my strength lol! and physically weak and obtuse as my weaknesses whaah! see....i'm feeling feeble all over my body again... oouuu..i feel so weird now..:(

2006-04-01T21:03:00.000+08:00

yeah!!went to christalite methodist home today to complete our CIP hours,its an old folks home.we were totally unprepared at 1st because we did not plan well enough and we were suppose to help them paint their walls but none of us brought any painting materials along as we assume* that the staffs there will provide for us.we were quite uneasy with the area when were just stepped in as we were not really ready to start our day with entertaining the aged.Therefore,we had to buy the painting materials last minute.(whahah!painting the wall was fun!!)although it wasn't the artistic form of wall graffiti,u won't believe that it was done by the secondary sch art students(eeeww)but we truly enjoyed ourselves man!!after a while,all of us feel ourselves at home,we started interacting with the old folks,playing with them..talked to them..learnt new tricks from them(hah!the folks taught us damn loads of stuffs and one of the indian resident there made each of us an origami!it's a flower heh)we did the laundry too ;) At the end of the day,all of us were unwilling to leave the place..hmm..come to think of tat..we had nothing at all in the starting of day but we ended up doing a great job and strengthening the bonds with the folks,i will definitely miss it !!
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after we left the old folks home,we went to a bball court as a class to practice our cheer there.

at certain times,i really wanted to correct and edit their moves..but i did not voice out cuz i know that they will say "we are not professional dancers" and there's nothing i can do anyway...i'm not a professional cheerleader too.

i hate zakiah..i hate the way she behaves..hate the way she speaks...hate the way she carried herelf..hate it when she tries to join in the grp..hate they way she always knock into me when she walks..
have u got no discipline?didn't ur parents taught u?can't u be abit more humble?can't u just shut ur gap?can't u just stop giving comments?can u just stop ur insults..although i know u didn't meant to but it's really getting me on my nerves.maybe it's because u had a friend like her*
she will recieve her retribution one day...i'm not gonna say much.

2006-03-27T18:03:00.000+08:00

i'm getting nausea in tis world of reality.i hate to grow up.i don't want to.going in the society,i am so afraid.talk to angie in cls today and i suddenly find myself half stepping into the real world in a few years time and i'm starting to feel this frightening sensate.seriously,i am really scared to live alone next time..really scared that i'm being left alone and no one wants me anymore.some of you may not feel this now,but i am..quite scary though. so i pray to god that no one will ever leave me and find someone whom i can really rely on..for the rest on my life,but of cuz that person hv to make me likes him 1st...i'm being stubborn again ;)

2006-03-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

school's reopening tml..still left more than half of the homeworks undone :(
went to watch the floorskil 4 competition on 17 march ,dope respect to the bboys and bgirls ;) though his grp didn't won but to me he's still da best!!you don't hv to be da best,it's a show expression between you and yourself,i'm really envious of you guys.After the first day of competition,me and mari met sandy,angie and her friend,david.Went to mezebar at meritus hotel and sandy tried to make us drunk!!irritating~me and angie ended up abit giddy and high after drinking the alchohol mixed by sandy lol~but we'r not drunk..we are good drinkers okay!!heh ;p
Gathering with the girls on wednesday were fun!!i truely enjoyed the day with u girls.No one eles would ever to prepare only the food for bbq except us lol!!..and all of us cried for the show 'lion roar'..it touched my heart.....aiyo feel like crying again le la! :( but anyway thanks sandy and her boyfriend for sending us home ,we really appreciate it .

*no idea why still...i'm really proud of him!!!yey~!jia you k!